Continuation of a polambal

Today I had appointment with the doctor. Poor MM was very sad all the week. He had lot of office work and was working late night daily. So I dint expect him to come with me to the clinic. It was raining heavily and he dropped me in front of the clinic. As I was talking with the counselor, he came in all wet.. What happened to him, in a week time? Hmm.. silence or denial of information???

MM does not want to be disturbed while he is with his first wife (I mean his computer) or while watching TV. Even I dont want to be disturbed while I am talking with my parents. The only difference is I have a lot of time and he dont. So whenever he finds time, he wants to entertain himself. Whatever be the reason, he should have come with me to the clinic(hi hi evil me). But he is feeling miserable and I cant let my beloved hubby like that. As elders say, Wife has to adjust most of the time >;-)

Non-stop Polambals

Today I had an appointment with my gynecologist. This was our dialogue.

MM: I will take work at home and will take you to the clinic
Me: Its just 15 mins walk from here, I will go on my own.
MM: Why are you straining yourself? I will take you.
Me: Okay paa.. ( Aha evlo nalla pathukaran, he loves me a lot)

Just before leaving to the clinic..
MM: Do you want me to come with you?
Me: What?
MM: I will stay in the car..
Me: what are you going to achieve with those precious/saved 30 mins?
MM: I will do something with the laptop.. Do you want me inside with you?
Me: (irritated) Your wish... ( I am not a cripple, I would have walked)
After a while,
MM: Do you want me to come inside?
Me: If you feel like, come. Don't ask me... (Are you my driver?)

Some volcano was rising up inside me and I was thinking, if he doesn't come inside..............

At last he dint come inside, I was dropped in front of the clinic and he was in the car, nondifying the laptop.. So he dint feel like coming in...

I don't have anyone to take care of me. He don't love me. He got all the time to bid in some auction site all the day, play games in his new play station and chat with all his friends/relatives and pick beautiful deals for them in net. But doesn't want to waste/spend some 30 mins for his wife, who is 36 weeks pregnant, fully tired and in pain.. Ethu than vulagam..
If my mom were with me, she wont have left me alone and I wont have bothered about this stupid man at all.. I miss my mom. Too late to think about such things..

Evil Me dint tell him, what the doctor told. Hi hi hi. Tit for Tat.

My lovely son...

What a mom i am..
I don't spend time with him.
I don't read books for him.
I don't draw/write for him.
I don't take him out for walking.
I don't play with him.
I don't feed him properly.
I don't brush his teeth or bath him properly.
I don't listen to him when he complaints.
I don't carry him when he ask for.
I don't dress him properly.
I don't take him for library/park/play area.
Still he loves me. The unconditional love...
And he kisses me, whenever i am sad/tired, making me guilty..

Missing you Amma!!!

I never thought, that I will miss you this much. I am longing for your care, love, affection, presence, food and everything of you. Every second I think about you. "If you were with me" is the prefix for all the sentences I think. While having mm, you were always there for me. I was very comfortable and I never realized your precious presence. I feel lonely now. MM and atai and mama are there to take care of me. but they are nowhere near you Amma... Who will talk/spend time with a silly pregnant women up to 2 A.M in the morning other than you... How badly I treated you, due to my pain/mood swing/etc and how patient you were taking care of me all those days. How bliss it was, when you were with me... (nizhalin arumai veyilil theriyum)
I miss you, miss you very badly Amma.

Happy Marriage Anniversary Amma and Appa..

After a very long time, I am all alone at home. mm went to park with my in-laws and MM at office and me sitting in couch sipping tea and reading a novel with some background music. I am bored/tired of sound from games, serials, movies and mm's cartoons all the days. At least some minutes for me to do things which i like..
After a very very long time, I went to library today morning. Picked some good books for mm and a novel for me. I once read a novel named "P.S. I Love You" by Cecelia Ahern. It was a very nice one(according to me). I wanted to read some other work of her. Picked "Rosie Dunne" by her. I can feel the same style of writing in this novel too. She selects one topic and keeps on repeating it in different ways. And she does it interestingly. And when I read, I feel like I am a part of the story(obviously I feel like the heroine in the story ;-) hi hi) . Opinion differs.. MM will never touch such a book. He is designing some Bidding engine for an auction site. It is not a part of his job but a passion towards programming(and also towards that auction site ;-) ). hmm.. silly software programmer.